Trying TO RUN AFTER crisis .

I couldn’t imagine the horrible of 911 .But then I guess it is thought at instance moment , you don’t know you would still alive in your bed , working through your daily tasks . or maybe afterall , one simple incident would crush one life apart .
From the news of the death of a depressive friends, to the shock of a friend who gone through ch and surving …. Then u start to questioned and stoped in admist of your busy life.
I take comfort in food . Whenever I am stressed out , maybe finding the reason of my existence of this world , I start to walked down to Teck point and get a packet of Kettlechips ,sometimes I would cheated myself , and buy a few packets of potatos chips and then I would indulge myself in them . At night when everybody was in bed, I would ransacked my fridge and took my favourite books and indulge myself in atub of ice-cream , chocolates . I try to keep them fat free. Like low fat yoghurt and dark brown chocolates.
I was trying to fill the hole inside .and it never filled up . But my weight went constantly up .
There are times I shut myself off . Ifound no reason to pull myself out of my bed early in the morning and go for a meditative state free run to freeze my troubled heart and brain.At least the fitter we are, We thrive to survie in this changing world .maybe it is time I ought to go into my trance state free run .